I'm glad the refinance is going through on Friday...
Because I had to log onto our bank account yesterday, when I was doing FAFSA crap, and had a bit of a shock as far as what was in the checking account. I should have been expecting what I saw. If I've expected X amount to be in there on any given week, and now that there's no more Y amount being direct deposited for my severance, why should I expect X amount to be there still? Of *course* it's going to be at Z amount now.

The good thing is, our savings is looking pretty good. We have a small CD that we originally set up to help fund the trip to England, but Lance and Penny made it so affordable that we didn't need to crack into it at all. So there's that plus a decent regular savings account, but the checking is just looking..

Well, ok. Honestly? It's looking fucking fantastic. Compared to when *I* was doing the bills? It's a dream!

But. But. The reality of my severance being gone, and the scare we already got when my Unemployment was first up and I had to reapply and cross my toes that that was going to be ok... If we do end up having to rely on just Dan's salary.. Will we be able to make it? Can I afford to do college?

And on that note, we brought the smart car up to be upgraded today. They did something to bring the OS up to speed with the '09s, make the transmission smoother, something, and they swapped out the battery with a higher-capacity battery.

So Dan says while they're doing that, why don't we head over to CCRI to talk to somebody about medical transcription, see what it would cost to do this through a community college instead of through Kaplan for $31K. And we get there, and the Knight Campus is just such an industrial eyesore, it makes me ill to look at, let alone walk up to and enter. And we're walking in, and Dan looks back at me and asks if I'm ok. And I can feel my throat closing up and my eyelids starting to prickle...

And instead of freaking out, or throwing a fit, or anything else, he pulled me out a chair at a table in the lobby, and we sat down for a few minutes. I told him I just wasn't prepared to talk to anybody today. I think I need to take another half a Zoloft for that. I don't know if it's the whole college is a scary thing thing, or if it's that damn building, but there is no way I could talk to anyone today. So we leave.

He just asks me not to go with Kaplan, if I can talk to someone at CCRI and maybe do this for a tenth the cost. Yes, absolutely! If I don't have to talk to them today? Absolutely! Especially since medical transcription is kind of a throwaway "hey, what about this?" idea for me to try out as far as getting a job doing.. And if I'm not really *feeling* it, then what the hell am I doing, picking Kaplan over CCRI?

But so I was happy because I didn't feel pressured to just go and talk anyways, and he was happy because I didn't force myself to go because I thought he wanted me to, and a good time was had by all. :) Thank yous from both parties.

And then we went to the mall and found out what time Wolverine was playing, stopped in at the Cox Cable store and picked up a new remote because ours was not working well anymore, hit the food court quick before the movie, went and saw the movie, picked up the smart car, and came home. :D

And then I tried to decide whether to go out to Knit Wits' free knitting night, where my cousin Susan and Gordy go, and have been asking me to go there... But I didn't. And I don't know why. I mean, I know why, it was because Dan was still awake. And I wanted to spend time with him. That's gotten to be a bad habit lately. I can't remember the last time I went out anywhere social without him.. Except to Brytne's that last time.. Am I just being lazy? Is that all it is? Or is there something more actually wrong with me?